IOP today was filled with great little tidbits. I’ll probably stretch out my notes into several posts. There was a guest who had gone through the program about 2 years ago, and he said something that really hit me.

“Accept the fact that you are what you became.”

He meant this in terms of knowing that he’d never be able to drink again, but I think it’s really applicable in a number of ways.

I became an alcoholic. I became a very hurt individual. I didn’t start out that way but it’s how things ended up. Now I need to do the work of accepting myself and moving forward.

Perusing the room, a magnet on Karl’s desk read “It is never too late to be what you might have been.”

Wow.

Wow.

Maybe it’s not too late for me to heal. Maybe I can still be a functioning member of society. Maybe I can live out my dreams.

Maybe.

Maybe it’s not too late for me.

I’m not gonna kill myself today.