I feel like people grow up learning that doctors and dentists and such are authority figures, because as children we are small and they are adults and specialists and it breeds an unhealthy mental relationship. If you ever are belittled, or don’t feel safe or listened to by a medical professional, you need to advocate for yourself. You can get other referrals. You can fire them. They are not your superiors because they went to school for a long time. YOU are the expert on your symptoms. You are a goddamn grown human being with worth and value and they are too. You are EQUALS. Remember that. You are not inferior to someone with more education. Your sickness doesn’t affect your inherent worth and value and shouldn’t affect your treatment.
I caved and bought face wipes and moisturizer the other day.
I liked my skin. My skin was alright and did just fine on its own.
Now I’m an oil pit and yet somehow a dry oil pit. It’s a real bastard.
I’ve noticed this self care appreciation thing coming on gradually as I’ve increased my ritual before bed.
It really began with rubbing scar gel in where I was scratched at work. I’m seeing results, which is really like, dandy magic.
Then I bought the fancy floss.
God, I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I’m so easily marketed to. I just- you know- I like nice things. I hadn’t known that floss was a fancy thing that I needed, before someone told me. Someone on the internet. Who was selling the fancy floss.
It came with a travel newsletter entitled “Flossophy.” There’s quizzes and recipes. Yoga instructions and an instagram challenge. It’s the most hipster goddamn floss on the planet.
But it is nice. Super scrubby feeling. Very effective. Why did I pay 8 dollars plus shipping for floss? BECAUSE SELF CARE THAT’S WHY.
To be honest, it’s worth it if I floss even a little bit more because of the fanciness. I gave up on my teeth for so long. I have such bad habits. I felt like there was no chance I’d even live to 30, so why should I worry about cavities?
I’m in a better state now, and I wish I could take that back. I think everyone that has neglected their teeth feels that way.
Now, though, I choose self care.
I rub scar gel onto my arms, so my battles can be my own business.
I floss so I can chew for many days to come.
I moisturize to keep from flogging myself with feelings of inadequacy.